Sunday

I've been getting excited about recording again. Last night I recorded some of the new songs on my laptop and began to imagine how they would be arranged on the new album, and it seemed to give me a new energy to keep writing and have more confidence in what I've already been working on. It's been hard for me in the past to really treasure the music I write. I have a bad habit of beating myself and my songs up, and I usually don't even know I'm doing it until I wake up to the feelings of insecurity and fear that grow in that kind of negative environment. So to have some space to feel good about the new songs was really great, especially when I remember how hard that used to be.

I still have alot of writing to do, but I keep learning to trust that the songs are there, and I'm just trying my best to give them voice and shape and let them speak (and sing) for themselves. Last night, I stripped the lyrics off of a progression and melody I wrote last winter and started rewriting the words, and I feel good about where the song is going now. It wasn't connecting with me before, even though the previous lyrics were good in my opinion. If you're reading this, please feel invited to pray to Jesus for me. Just ask Him to humble me and comfort me on this journey. Committing to songwriting and performing scares me as much as it leads me to wonder.

I've been kind of nervous about blogging, but it's not that bad once you do it.